I'm NOT Japanese

Wed, 01 Oct 2008 07:54:52 GMT

i don't normally post on ^roughly consecutive days because nothing exciting enough happens. but today i actually had a little free time so i decided to actually do something.
so after class i wanted to get a keva juice but i didn't decide on it until after i got in the car over by lomas and girard. the closest keva was on central across from campus which basically means no parking and i have to navigate central. so i tossed that idea and drove over to ta lin and the lollicup store. parked the car very far away from the building since i hate that parking lot and didn't want to have to maneuver my way in between parking spots, and walked over. well about half there sitting on the benches on the sidewalk were 3 kids. well not like elementary school but they were younger than me. and as i walked by one of them shouted "konnichwa". and i thought "okay... whatever"

[sidetrack] because this wasn't what really bothered me. so on sunday like i mentioned i went to help the JACL drinks booth by making sno-cones. as i expected, a lot of *no offense* white wapanese and asia-philes dressed in chinese garb and nasty gothic lolitas outfits were at this japanese fall festival. so i'm working there with my siblings and this guy lawrence who was at least a 2nd generation japanese american, when a girl buys a sno-cone and says "domo arigatou gozaimasu" and i'm thinking "i should just slap this girl up side the head"
public asian gatherings like this really piss me off. for some reason i feel like the biggest racist when i say that, but just because it's a japanese event doesn't mean the every single oriental person there will be japanese. not that i'm saying it's easy to differentiate between any ethnicity but what's the point of showing off that you appreciate someone else's culture. i'm not even japanese and i'm offended that people think they have to dress up and phrase barf at a cultural event. even if this was a vietnamese gathering am i supposed to be impressed that you can google phrases in my parent's tongue and test them out on me as if they're second nature to you? and of course i want to hear about how enlightening and majestic vietnam was during your two week vacation. omg you have real lacquer paintings from vn in your living room? >:E
don't get me wrong i think exploring different cultures is amazing and exciting. i love asian cultures myself but just because i'm in a korean kick doesn't mean i'm going to start wearing hanboks to school or trying to practice speaking to every "korean" around. if you really love something and are inspired by it then by all means appreciate it but you don't have to flaunt it around not especially at events like these which are meant to promote cultural traditions and heritage which doesn't equal white girl in kimono.
but before i got totally disgusted by what she said to me, lawrence says straight out, "you're welcome" which is basically the most awesome thing that happened that day. he probably gets that a lot given that fact that he's ethnically japanese but doesn't speak it. plus hopefully it reminded her and her friends that you can't assume language and culture from ethnicity (never mind the fact that she tried to translate it for him...)[/sidetrack]

i didn't respond too much at first because i had learned a valuable lesson from lawrence that people will always assume things and that they just have to be corrected the first few times. i was past the point of correction when i remembered this while walking into lollicup. i had figured that they would probably think they assumed wrong anyway because i just ignored them. BUT while i was walking back to my car, they started shouting out "i'm korean!". WT f***ing F! even now i can hardly respond to that without blowing my top. why the hell would they think that changing the ethnicity would get my attention? even if i was korean, why would i now be attracted to answering them? they already offended me by getting it wrong once. i'll stop typing because i know whatever comes next will be really racist and judgmental of me to say about someone, which would be counter intuitive to the point of this post. but i really don't know if i feel bad about thinking certain unwritten things about people... i mean they're doing it to me.

basically, i had a bad day. i don't think i should do anything with my free time anymore. stay at home and live life as a netizen.
i had wanted to write about frankenstein by mary shelley because i just finished it for honors and i wanted to post pictures of my shadow triptych for design class but i'll wait and see what we do with them tomorrow in photoshop. maybe next week.

I hate funerals

Thu, 08 Feb 2007 06:11:14 GMT

The priest that baptized me died yesterday. Words can't really express how I feel about it. I just know that I won't be able to do anything tomorrow night except cry.

It's not like we were BFFs but I can't help feeling really sad about it. I knew him more than I knew my mom's stepdad and I didn't stop crying until the day after his funeral.

I don't think he suffered and he actually knew that it was nearing time for him to go. I hope he gets to a better place, because this one sucks.

Happy Holiday Cards

Wed, 03 Jan 2007 20:39:50 GMT

I had fun drawing these

or

dA link is much better. Full view of course

finally complied them in case you haven't seen them all.

~~I'll see (most) everyone tomorrow at school.~~
[EDIT]: no school tomorrow i guess :D

f1rst entry

Fri, 02 Dec 2005 05:21:20 GMT

Wah i have a livejournal... for no particular reason. probably just to say that i have one so don't expect updates or nothing... as if anyone would be interested with my life anyway

well that's all i have to say for now

Unspoken

I'm NOT Japanese

I hate funerals

Happy Holiday Cards

f1rst entry